fOrBidDen_sEntUewAry

2003-10-31T00:09:00.000-08:00

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in school now...today's the last day of school -sObS- this means that this is the last day 2j is gonna be together.we're all gonna be seperated next year...i'm gonna miss all my friends,everyone of them.hope i end up in 3j -gRiNz- went to class after CMC meeting and liane,krystl,rachel and i played water bomb!haha it was so fun!wish we could do this more often...the water was so freakin cold!haha and all of us took damn long to dry.yesterday went town with kuti,maine,nana and jess.had alotta fun doing perfume shopping!we sampled practically every single perfume on display!haha then i sprayed the boss intense fragrance all over me!damn i smelt good.then went down to heeren and jess found out that she lost her wallet -pOoR bAbY- followed her back to paragon to file a report.we had a strong feeling that it was totally gone...thank god she didn't put her pin number at the back of her ATM card becuase if she did,she'd be dead.today's the 5th day i'm fastin' and i'm going strong!haha yesterday this guy askes me:
guy:you're not fasting arh?
me:huh?
guy:are you fasting today?
me:yeah...why?
guy:should i fast?
me:laughs
guy:my friends told me to try...is it difficult?
me:no but you gotta be strong and determined...laughs
guy:oh thanks
me:no problem
after walkin bout 1km away from him,he said
guy:thanks!bye!
me:haha!bye!
guy:take care!
haha...that was the weirdest conversation i ever had!i don't even know that guy!told mummy about it and she was laughing her head off -bIsH- wish everyday could be as fun as the leadership camp training.it was so fun.made alotta friends!haha found out that alotta people are crazy over charmed!and they're jealous that i have charmed earrings!haha -LaUgHtErS- i'm going for the d&d and i'm dead because i ain't got any clothes to wear -bLeAh- think i'm gonna go shopping again!man i love shopping!haha my friends're really jealous because i only needa pay 15 bucks for the d&d but the rest needa pay 80 bucks!haha it's a really big difference...

aNgeLcRaFt_07

2003-10-28T01:23:00.000-08:00

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was kinda bored in the morning...wasn't in a good mood.then we had to go for this talk bout understanding sexuality and stuff.hahas then it so happened that the lady came over and gave us the talk bout a few months back...was talkin to jo bout [......n].poor her.wish i could do something bout it.then we were supposed to have a basketball match but it was cancelled because the juniors were having a netball match -wHaTeVeR-felt so much better after recess then shermain,angeline,jobelle and jane were experimenting the nail polishes i brought on my nails and that crazy shermain kept on taking out the nail polish she put -bIsH- and the worst thing was that we didn't have any cutex so we had to resort to tissue paper,water and metal suler!hahas...it was damn funny but really pain because of that stupid shermain's nails!they were practically piercing into my skin!then we played quite alotta games and got kinda bored so called tiffany.haha had so much fun talking to her...made everyone say hi to her -gRiNz- then don't know what happened because the line got cut off so msged her instead...went home with shermain and bumped into kuit and nana so went home together.so irritating,they know i hate going to value because it's damn budget and yet they still went there -uRgH- all of 3 of them bought so much stuff!haha then shermain bought me a can of grass jelly!haha...pathetic -bLeAh- if it wasn't 2 cans for 1 buck,that sherbert wouldn't have bought it for me.haha...shit!i left the tv on while watching the matrix reloaded halfway.stupid me,better off it now.

aNgeLcRaFt_07

2003-10-28T00:53:00.000-08:00

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went to rachel's house around 3...she waited for me downstairs my house.haha took some time to find her.went over to her place and watched dumb and dumberer but we weren't in the mood and the movie wasn't as funny as the first time i watched it so we went to her room and damn! her room's so neat!unlike mine,which has loads of stuff in it.but i still love my room -sMiLeS- we talked and talked and talked even more.haha then i suggested that we go down for a walk but rachel said that there wasn't anything nice under her block so we went to jurong point in the funniest clothes ever...i was wearing school shorts and some stupid lookin' choir tee that mary gave me and rachel was wearin school shorts and an op tee.the stupidity?SCHOOL SHORTS!!!!hahas...then bought alotta junk food at value(the damn budget shop).bought lakers,lots and lots of chocolate and keropok.haha rachel bought four packets of potato chips and they're so cheap!4 for 1 buck!then mummy called and asked me to take out the fish and do some stuff to it -uRgH- we went back to my place...gave some of the chocolates to iverson.haha he's so cute!then went to my room to pig out.actually it's only rachel because i was fasting.yacked and yacked bout all sorts of stuff.rachel used my black nail polish to paint her toe nails...haha it's really nice man!then rachel left bout 6 plus...

aNgeLcRaFt_07

2003-10-26T17:57:00.000-08:00

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didn't go school today because i overslept!haha...so today my manicure 'experts' can't do anything to me!haha wondering where i shoulg go later -pOnDeRs- maybe i'll change into my uniform and meet jo in town later.but then i'll hafta wait damn freakin long because school ends at 2 and that lil' babe takes forever to get ready.she'll take half an hour to doll herself up in the toilet!haha...maybe i should go over to my grandma's house and keep her company -sMiLeS- then i'll go to tampines mall and shop for my undergarments!wanna get the bra that allows you to iron on butterflies and stuff.it's really nice and sweet =) maybe i'll drop by topshop and get another g-string...wanna get tha nail polish that's bright red tinged with orange.a perfect combination of seductiveness and hippiness!haha wanna get the december issue of seventeen and cosmo girl.they've got lotsa stuff bout prom stuff and i'm sure they'll have lotsa lotsa stuff bout nail polish! -wHhOoO!- haha wanna go to jennyfer later...think they've changed the wear to summer wear.i'm sure they'll have pretty nice bikinis and tops -gRiNz- i'm so happy because my auntie dropped by just now and because she bought me my sally hansen maximum growth nails nail polish and my elizabeth arden stuff!haha damn happy now...think i'll go bathe now and go to jurong point to help jess look for accesories!poor thing,she doesn't have anything to go with her clothes.i'm so crazy over the new fragrance intense by boss.it's so seductive!haha maybe i'll get it later at paragon...

aNgeLcRaFt_07

2003-10-26T17:39:00.000-08:00

261003

spent alotta money at jurong point just now...42 bucks for my skirt and 29 bucks for my heels! -uRgH- if i add the top that i bought yesterday in town,i wasted a total of 106 bucks because the top costs me 35 bucks!hahas i'm gonna be so dead if mummy finds out but it's really worth it because it's all black!haha black rules man!went to tiong bahru plaza because my sis wanted to get a particular pair of sandles but in the end there wasn't her size so it was a wasted trip -bisH- it was already 7.30 and we were really hungry so mummy decided to eat at sakae.everyone ate alot except for me because i was really tired.in the end,mummy didn't have enough cash and so i had to pay for the meal.it costs me 56 bucks!haha wondered what they ate...probably the whole conveyer belt and me,i only ate california rolls.after dinner,went to queensway to get my sis's shoes.went around the whole of queensway when she finally decided to get the pink adidas one...she bought the limited editon one.it's really nice but I HATE PINK!!!!when she was trying on the shoes,i looked around and fell head over heels for the adidas graffiti shoes!damn they're nice!hafta save money if i wanna get them but like i said,it's limted edition so it's sold for a limited time only so i don't know how long it'll be on display...0h wells,i'll just hafta try my luck then.

aNgeLcRaFt_07

2003-10-25T21:27:00.000-07:00

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went town today...bought my formal dinner clothes.i love it!hahas it costs me 35 bucks.then ate at marche -yUmMiEs- haha saw a senior there.daughter o6 told me that if i follow the council to the d&d,it costs only 30 bucks -pOnDeRS- wonderin whether i should go or not...but if i wanna go then i'd hafta waste money on getting clothes.maybe i'll ask my mum for money =) there's so much work to be done for the leadership thingy -sHakEs HeAd- went to the same restaurant i went to a week ago.damn i ate a whole lot!haha ate black pepper crab!it's finger lickin' good man...then there was this black cat that was staring at me (i was sitting outside because my daddy wanted to smoke) and i asked whether he/she was vegetarian.i know im mad but the cat was just so adorable!hahas...tomorrow needa go to jurong point and get my heels and skirt for the formal dinner this wednesday [i think].kor's on a diet!haha she said she feels that she's too fat -sO vAiN- hahas yeah hope she loses weight.wasted so much money on friday...bought four bottles of nail polish.haha bought a glittery black one,a purple one,a glittery purple one and a damn freakin bright red one.haha liane got the shock of her life when she saw the bottle.then krystl,rachel and shermain did manicure for my nails!haha they looked terrible!haha really tired -sLeEpY eYeS- so gotta sleep now...

aNgeLcRaFt_07

2003-10-24T06:46:00.000-07:00

241003

nothing much happened recently...found out that pat and i are in the same group for the leadership camp thingy -tHaNk GoD- or else i'd be damn anti-social.it's not that i want to but i don't wanna open up to someone and get hurt the way [sOmEoNe] has hurt me...it hurts to realize that this close friend if mine
TURNED HER WHOLE DAMN BACK ON ME...EVERY SINGLE PART OF HER.i don't know what made the drastic change in her.i miss the old her.i can still remember all those times when i considered her my close friend.i still remember all those times when she used to come over to my house almost every weekend and we'd have so much fun.i remember her as my fun-loving,cheerful and humourous friend.she left so many beautiful memories in my heart and i'll never forget any part of it...i wish that she'd just giva me a hug like how she used to when she was down -hAiX- no matter what i say now will not change anything but i hope she knows what she's doing...talked to tiffany yesterday!hahas really miss talkin to her man -sMiLeS- she loves my blog to death haha.mummy bought me a nokia 6100!damn happy now -wIdE gRiN- but she likes it so much she wants to use it for a week -bIsH- hahas...so i gotta use her 6510 for the time being...there's so much work to be done for the leadership thingy -bLeAh- i passed all my subjects!haha my hard work finally paid off!gotta find the information now or i'm dead!hahas...

eVeRy pArT oF mE iS sHaTtErEd To PiEcEs BeCaUsE oF a CloSe fRiEnD i UsEd tO hAve... aNgeLcRaFt_07

2003-10-20T18:20:00.000-07:00

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didn't go school today...feelin damn sick now -uRgH- msged daughter 05 said that i caught the 2j virus -rEsTrAiNeD lauGhTeR- threw up twice early in the morning and i'm running a fever now.my body aches like shit,every single part of my body.had fun yesterday during the training altho it was tiring.did alotta self reflection...used to just think but now i write it down -sMiLeS- went home with jess and liane.haha we were eating curry puffs in the mrt!found out that jess has the same craving as me!old chang kee's curry puffs!haha damn they're delicious!read jess's blog and she said something bout me which made me feel a million times better!feels great to have a friend that cares bout you...don't know what i'm gonna do for the rest of the day.think i'm gonna read my falling leaves book and watch a walk to remember,bring it on,save the last dance and the wedding planner!haha...my stomach's growlin so gotta eat my breakfast!

sIcK aNgeLcRaFt_07

2003-10-19T06:28:00.000-07:00

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had trouble waking up mu little sis just now...turned out she didn't have tuition and i fried those cheese sausages for nothing -dAmN- but i'm eating them up now!haha it's really nice.everytime i bite it,melted cheese gushes out. -yUmMiEs- a piece of heaven...went for the national colours awards and it was BORING,PLAIN BORING.there was this lady in green who checked every single student and practically scolded everyone,except us councillors -tOoThLeSs GrIn- nope,no one from _jc.really sad...after it ended,went down to yishun so that i could go home with mummy and kill time too.reached there around 1.30 but mummy still had alotta work so she told me to go for lunch.thought of going to yoshi and eat the salmon bowl but it was 5 bucks and i only had 4 bucks!stupid me,when mummy asked me if i had enough cash,i said yes.yes!what was i thinking but oh wells so ate at KFC.[....] happened to be there and we chatted.brought back alotta memories,painful and hurtful ones.couldn't take it anymore so told [....] to get lost.[....] was damn hurt but i had no choice.thank god daughter 06 called.felt so much better.she told me she went to the hospital 1 in the morning because her fever was running high...good grieves it's gone down.talked for quite some time.caught up with the good times,feels so great talking to her.went to a music store and saw all the cd's i want!haha found the three doors down album,creed and The Calling!but couldn't find the lifehouse album.don't know where i'm gonna get so much money and get all the albums -sIgH- shopped around for a little while more and went back to mum's office.from yishun we went to pick sis from gram'z house.that lazy girl,can't go home herself!saw a senior on the way to lakeside.when i reached home,there was this big box on my bed and saw a creative sound blaster!daddy bought me a sound blaster!haha jumped up and down my room...mummy got kinda jealous and lectured daddy!haha she said [wei she me ni you,wo mei you?ni bi wo zhong yao hor?] haha...the whole family started laughing like mad cows!haha guess madness does run in the family...but now i can listen to linkin park the concert way!haha went to the fila warehouse sale before going for dinner.bought a sleefless top and shorts...only costs me 21 bucks!it's real cheap i swear.the visors were on sale for 1 buck each!then daddy said that it was dangerous to go shopping with me because i bought the stuff in 15 minutes!haha then we went to a seafood restaurant for dinner...played with the crabs while waiting for the food!haha damn the prawns there are delicious!could eat up every part,including the skin!going for leadership training tomorrow...it's gonna be tiring man.from 8 to 5pm.i'm gonna miss my beauty sleep!haha wanna go town with kuti and maine on tues but i'm short of cash...even promised them to go for the manicure session!-i'M dEaD- wanna buy the burberry perfume i used ti have,tired of the ralph lauren one...wanna get a black polo tee and give away my red one!haha i'm mad...mummy says she's gonna get me the nokia 6100 but i'm yearning for the nokia 7250i -bLeAh- boy am i materialistic...hahas -LaUgHtErS-

aNgeLcRaFt_07

2003-10-17T00:07:00.000-07:00

171003

just came back from science centre...had so much fun!it brought out the child in me!it's been so long since i've been this happy -sMiLeS- at last i found kor's tag board,i'm such a blur head!haha last night i called thru perfect 10 and talked alotta crap.liane said i sounded like a kuku!i think i sounded like a four year old who found her kor kor's phone and dialled p10!went town with kuti and maine on tuesday...ate at marche -yUmMy- and took neos with the yaya people.it was damn fun =) but had blisters because i didn't put on my socks...saw the love of my life -bLuSh- she stared,i stared and im so in love with her!haha only kuti and allison knows everything -sHhH- that best friend replies over my tag damn fast man...haha wanted to put this in my blog when i was feelin down but i'm still gonna put it altho i'm happy:[ there's so much insanity in me,somebody please help me.i'm crying so loudly,i'm tearing apart.why is this feeling breaking my heart?i lost all my senses,i gave up my soul.i lost all my feelings that were yearned to be told...] to kor_#73:i am so sorry,i really am.promises,promises,promises.i'm so good at making them but yet so bad at keeping them.i'm so sorry if i can't do it but i'm trying...when i feel like giving up,i'll always remember that you have faith in me.thanks alot -mUaCks- you're my everything,kor...tomorrow needa go to NJC for some national zone colours awards stuff -bIsH- im so damn tired man,gonna sleep now haha -bLeSsEd be-

fReE fRoM mIsErIeS aNgeLcRaFt_07

2003-10-10T23:27:00.000-07:00

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-kOr mAdE mY dAy positive iN oNe hour! tHrEe cHeErS fOr hEr mAn-
had literature paper yesterday…wrote till my hands went numb and the worst thing was that I was sitting in between two fans! –fReEzE mE gOd!- was shivering like hell!mummy fell sick and so I couldn’t go to the country club…my sister told me that it’s called warren country club.sounds really nice.haha maybe I can name my son that!During dinner the other day,daddy was saying how cool it was if I could get married at 24!he said he’d be a grandpa at the age of 51 since he’s 40 this year.ad a little confession to kor today and told her that I [s….D].she told me to stop and threw some sense into me.she made me promise her that I’ll stop one day and I gave her my word…what made my heart melt was when she said I won’t rush you because I know it’s hard but promise me you got to try.don’t give up.thanks a lot dude…it’s something I’ll never forget =) kept dreaming of [hEr] these few days.the dreams felt so real,it felt great.do I like her?but I see her everyday and yet my heart doesn’t beat twice as fast and I’ve been dreaming of her the same time for the past week…should I tell [hEr]?but what if she takes it as a joke and tells people?better keep it to myself.tuition ‘cher just msged me and said she needs to cancel tuition due to an extended lecture –tHuMbS uP!- now I can study on my own…peacefully!gonna do two sets of maths paper two and impress my ‘cher!haha,took five pictures of Iverson this morning while he was having breakfast,as in when I was feeding him breakfast.hope he didn’t get blinded by the lights.daddy agreed to let me go for the leadership training this time round.must make good use of this opportiunity.my hips went a size down thanks to the drink.realized it when my skirt was sagging way below my g-string and I felt great!think there’s another Liverpool match tonight so gotta wear my damn humoungous Liverpool jersey again and cheer like mad and as usual,my family will give the alieny stare again when I’m by myself but who cares…-bLeAh- after the match,gonna play star wars with daddy and sis again.it’s starting to become like a ritual.but maybe we’ll switch to wrestling.nah,I don’t think daddy’d wanna have wrestling because the first time we tried it was the last time we’re gonna play it because I boxed daddy till his mouth bled!haha…it was so funny!daddy got so embarrassed he went back to the computer room and played his stupid computer game. –LoSeR- haha the burden in me’s finally gone!feeling great now…gonna go down to some serious work now.can’t skive now because it’s only two more days!just two more days and I’m free!free from homework,teachers and exams!it’s the best feeling in the world…haha although going to school isn’t a major pain in the ass,only taking 3 saint.joan is but oh well,it’s not long when I say bye bye to them too…that’ll be yiPpiEdOodLe for me!thinking of watching a movie with sharifah next Thursday and then visit mummy at her workplace.talked to Alfred this morning and he was damn funny…went to his grandma’s place and drank red wine and he puked!haha,poor guy!told him to take panadol or aspirin and go to sleep.he didn’t reply me after that so guess he’s enjoying his beauty sleep.haha.on Thursday,girlfriend and I talked bout marrying rich blokes when we grow up and I told her I dream of marrying a Korean guy!haha…she was laughing her head off –bIsH- haha.had so much fun talking to her.she always complains that I am very tow(did I spell it correctly?) when I’m not…she says I look damn bitchy when I don’t smile –wHatEvEr!- cheat my feelings only…that’s it,gotta study now.

+hyper +active aNgeLcRaFt_07

2003-10-06T22:24:00.000-07:00

071003

-sEcOnD dAy oF eXaMs-
had geography paper today...put it alotta effort the night before =) hope i do really well for it!had chinese paper 1 and 2 yesterday.managed to pull thru altho i can't say that i'll do as well as mid year thou -dIsHeArTenEd- i wrote the crappiest composition!haha,don't even know if the title of the compo wants me to write that!wahahahahahahahahaha -LaUghTeRs- can't wait for exams to finish so i can go shopping! -oOHh- how much i miss shopping man...the clothes,the shoes,the bags and the nail polishes!i'm gonna dye my hair again after the exams and can hardly wait!haha,damn i can't watch american pie:the wedding because it's r(a) so i'll just hafta wait for liane to get the pirated one! -hEhHeH- having maths paper 1 tomorrow so gotta studay my butt off!it's the subject that i wanna get the highest!shermain is gonna get a big damn scoldin' from the whole class because she didn't turn up for her paper the second time in a row! -wHaT dA heLL iS sHe tHinKiNg?- i'm sick,so is daughter 06,mary,krystl and paula!don't know why she can't turn up...even my classmate that wanna quit school turned up for the papers thou she didn't write anything -hAiX- wish her all the best.my auntie got me a membership card for this country club and i'll be going there from this friday onwards! -yIpPieS- can't wait!haha,but i don't think any bungs go to country clubs right?oh well,haha ;p having tuition later so hafta do 'chers homework...can't laze!

+pOsItIvE +hYpEr =) aNgeLcRaft_07

2003-10-04T17:49:00.000-07:00

051003

-cOuNtdOwN tO eXaMs - oNe mOre dAy!-
friday was damn fun!haha,wrote kor's name using graffiti and she couldn't understand what the hell i wrote!haha,her brain damn slow sia =) -hEhHeH- then disturbed her during home econs...complained to her that a lau pok person used budget liquid paper to write my name on the home econs table and she said it was her! -bLuSh- damn pai sai.honey fell sick,threw up in class -pOoR dEArIe- then she went home,didn't even get to say bye to her...haix wanted to message her but daughter 05 told me that her phone batt is with heu cousin so can't message... ^hOnEy,iF yOu'Re evEr rEadINg tHis,tAkE LotSa cAre aND gEt weLL sOoN yEh?mIsSinG yOU tO dEaTh^ (kISs<2>) mary and puala fell sick too...paula looked damn pale,as if she was gonna faint!mary kept touching me because her hands were freezing!as if she just came out of a air-con room,nat's like that too =( mummy always told her to drink lotsa water but she doesn't listen...haha i drank mary's bottle of coke!yesterday went to sim lim square because daddy wanted to look for speakers to put in the van and i was drooling over the xbox!haha went town with rachx jie and went to graffiti cafe to study and then went to ljs...rachel was so into her phone and i was studying like a mad pig!haha,i'm such a blur head because i had no idea that nt's chinese paper only lasted half an hour when mine's a blooming two hours!wHaTevEr!
saw this damn hot bung at yoshi and i was all over her!haha,rachel looked as if she wanted to puke -LauGhtErs- then paula and jobelle joined us...started telling them bout the bung but they couldn't be bothered haha i was by myself!left an hour later and the bung was still there! -oH mY GoD!!!- haha,was so crazy man!went damn hyper after that =) msged blur kor kor the other day and told her i want her to follow me to town after exams to look for bungs and she wanted to find chio bu girls...wanna see but don't wanna touch -kOr'S gOnE maD!- haha,during tuition i told my 'cher that if i still can't perfect congruency, she can't leave but of course a smart brain like me would understand it easilY!wahahahahahahahaha...gotta bathe because having tuition later!

+hYpEr aNgeLcRaFt_07

2003-10-02T05:28:00.000-07:00

021003

being fourteen for two days has been so cool…stayed back to study just now then went to but the Korean pop cd,listening to it now and it’s so cool –hEhHeh- finally,a tagboard in my blog after 5 monhts,what the hell was I thinking!haha,wanna buy the sountrack for freaky Friday…it’s damn cool!really like the song that went ‘I wanna get out,I wanna shout out,take me away’,something like that.wahahahahahaha,me and daughter 06 were singing man, I feel like a woman the whole day!I was saying the “let’s go girls” part all the time even though it was the part I hated the most!haha, -sO sAD- the girls from 3J thought I was in sec 4!do I really look that old? –sObS<3>- don’t wanna lend them my charmed earrings already…hMpFf!really miss tiffany,she’s away in perth for holiday =) hope she enjoys it there.wanna watch American pie:the wedding but it’s r-rated so guess hafta wait till the vcd comes out,so sad didn’t watch American pie –bLeAh- kinda still confused now… -pOnDerS- sometimes i wanna fall in love but i'm afraid of falling too deep,thinking bout the past really hurts me so badly,it hurts even more than cutting myself.and when i think more bout it,the more confused and lost for no apparent reason =( ^i dOn'T kNow wHetHeR tO LivE oR dIe,i dOn'T kNoW wHeTheR tO LauGh oR cRy...iT cUtS LikE a KniFe,sHe'S oUt oF mY LiFe^ who exactly is the person that would make me feel that the world would be a better place to live in?is she right in front of me?

cOnFuSed aNgeLcRaFt_07

2003-10-01T21:17:00.000-07:00

011003

finally fourteen!that's what everyone told me...haha really happy because todaY's my birthday. in the morning wore council uniform and blazer and heels -uRgH- darn pain sia but thank god no blisters!haha,after school went to marche to eat wiht marmie and sister-in-law...had so much fun!haha, we ate alot and also took the pictures of the food we ate!when i was paying the bill,daughter 05 ,06 and obasan called bumped into us,took picture wiht my cam at the sorta waterfall ;p -hEhHeh- took neoprint twice and i paid for both but didn't matter...it was so much fun!we were screaming our heads off at thye machine.i even brought my cam inot the noeprint machine!wahahahahahaha...i wanna thank god today for my wonderful parents for bringing me into this world,my cool and funky sister who agrees with me in practically everything,my bestest best friend who made me cry when she sent me a surprise birthday present,my amazing friends who were always there for me,my 'family members' who made life so amazing and fun and most of all i would like to thank god because if it wasn't for him,i wouldn't be here...god brought me into this world because i'm special,everyone that's here is special in their own way.i wanna thank god also because if it wasn't for you who enlightened me in my darkest moments,i would have been a so different person and see the world,people around me and myself in a different light...God,you're my everlasting light and nothing can change that -aMiN- saw this hot!hot!hot! bung at cine's yoshinoya and walked two rounds just to see her!haha,poor daughter 05 followed me...marmie told me to take picture with the bung but she has s girlfriend so who cares.i mean someday i will meet that someone special who will make me feel that the world is a much better place to live in...that's what kor kor told me last night... ^meSsaGe tO KoR^: thanks for talking to me these few days,really made me feel better after talkin and thanks for the picture message!it's sOOooo cUte!haha...

+pOsItIvE aNgeLcRaFt_07

2003-09-26T07:38:00.000-07:00

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really tired now sia -sLeEpY eYeS- tomorrow still have tuition!haix,tuition teacher still haven't replied me to confirm the time -bLeaH- my room is in am bloddy hell mess,daddy told me to clean up but it's still messy =( think gonna sleep in parent's room tonight,lurrve their room man!it's damn freakinn big!just now went to meet mummy at her workplace to get new specs!she says i look sexy in them and my degree went down -yIpPieZ- kor got scolded right in front of my face this morning.thanks to loots.grandson and sharon ditched me at the play centre just now but at least lopez came and saved my life!krystl pissed the hell outta me in the train...thinking of dyeing my hair again altho shermain thought that i HIGHLIGHTED my hair!haha,that's funny.english paper wasn't so bad,know that i can do well,must have faith in myself.wanna link my blog to image station so that i can put my coming b'day pics there!four more days to my birthday!!!haha,can't wait to get all my prezzies,hope to get alot!

LeSs dEprESseD aNgeLcRaFt_07

2003-09-26T00:36:00.001-07:00

Look at me
You may think you see
Who I really am
But you'll never know me
Every day
It's as if I play a part
Now I see
If I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I cannot fool my heart

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside

I am now
In a world where I
Have to hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow
I will show the world
What's inside my heart
And be loved for who I am

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me
Why is my reflection
Someone I don't know< BR>Must I pretend that I'm
Someone else
For all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside

There's a heart that must be free to fly
That burns with a need to know the reason why

Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel
Must there be a secret me
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
Someone else
For all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside

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this is exactly how i feel now...confused and depressed.my birthday's coming soon and i'm bringing my friends to marche and tomorrow im going to my gram's house to celebrate my birthday.there's so many things that i should be happy about and yet i'm not =( there's like thos heavy burden in my heart that doesn't wanna get off -uRgH- trying so hard to figure out what's happening and yet the more i search deep down,i get lost even more...feels as if i'm drowning in myself and into my sorrows.maybe i'm in love with someone but yet no one around me seems to catch my eye -pOndErS- what exactly is true love?is dating a girl called love?does it mean if i love a girl it's true love?beacuse i believe it's love...the playcenter's gonna close in three minutes time i'm gonna leave and keep jess and nana company in the canteen

dEpReSseD aNgeLcRaFt_07

2003-09-26T00:36:00.000-07:00

2003-09-25T01:44:00.000-07:00

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hahahahahaha im back again...staying back in school now ;p having free music from this preson sitting in front of me!my hands're damn cold that i can hardly type anything properly!everyone here is by themselves!wahahahahahahahahahahahaha...poor nurul,still haven't gotten her the quiksilver shirt that she wants -bLeAh- poor sweetheart,i fil so bad alhto i did look for the shirt.looked for it in the whole of flash and splash and dropped a few shirts -sHhh- haha,but still feel bad =x really late already so im gonna go home now!!!!

angelcraft_07

2003-09-23T01:24:00.000-07:00

2003-09-17T01:00:00.000-07:00

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heheh...few more days to my birthday! -yIpPieS- can't wait ;p haha,wondering what everyone will get me?hmmm,but at least my daddy got the sleese school shoes and the osiris shirt i wanted for my birthday altho he owes me a skirt!wahahahahahahaha,thank god i scored 75 for my art!yeah!next wednesday going to marche with rAcheL tOng,sHaRiFaH,rAcHeL nG aNd bAtHu!!!celebrating my birthday at grams house this saturday and still ()&*^pOndEriNg*&%$#)) over whether i should wear my oSirIs sHiRt oR sTuSsY sHiRt

2003-09-17T00:34:00.000-07:00

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what a damn farkin day i had today.first,forgot to bring my phone when i left the house and then the mrt i was in wasn't for passenger service and had to leave the mrt!-wHat dA heLL??- worse still,i screwed up the play and later found out that i left my keys in my room!and now i have my period!-uRgH- this is so not my day man and feeling so fucked up and my revision timetable is all screwed up because of lotsa projects!this is so stressful but don't really care ;p anyway don't have much to say so in the ways of wiccaâ€¦blessed be and may the power of three set us free

aNgElCrAfT_07

2003-09-16T05:03:00.000-07:00

pErSoNaL developments-
-follow according to timetable for the exam
-study hard
-be more positive
-don’t care bout what people think about you
-believe in yourself
-do all your homework and hand them on time!
-love yourself
-exercise more
-can only go shopping once a week!
-stop buying so many bottles of nail polish!they’re all black!

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daddy didn’t get me the mp3 player on sat so he’s gonna give it to me on my birthday! -yiPpieZ- wahahahahahaha…damn I’m mad!hmmm,wondering what will my friends get me? (8&^ponders%$#) love my birthday because there won’t be any lessons!haha,we’ll be going to st. Theresa’s church!it will be so darn cool.had alotta fun at the esplanade yesterday.before the musical started,violet and I thought of leaving the theatre and go town instead –hEh heH- went to cut my hair just now and it’s sOOooOO fReakIiiNnG short! But I love it!it’s so cool man. Planned out my exam timetable already and must make sure that I go according to it if not I’m dead…haix wish had planned it earlier so that I don’t needa rush through my revisions!better pray hard that daddy will allow me to watch charmed this week,next week,the week after, and the exam week because if he doesn’t,I’ll kill myself!hafta go and study, in the ways of wicca…blessed be and may the power of three set us free

aNgElCrAfT_07

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last night told my dad that I want the mp3 player and he’s gonna get it for me later on!this’s so cool,getting an mp3 player is <1000 000 iNfiNitY times> better than that damn lau pok discman of mine…haha currently working on my own website and cannot wait for it to publish!in the ways of wicca…blessed be and may the power of three set us free

aNgElCrAfT_07

2003-09-16T05:02:00.000-07:00

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it’s been so long since I updated my blog…really happy because I talked to tiffany yesterday!really miss her and can’t wait to go over to aussie. –pOndeRs- should I go to Australia and study with tiffany?she encourages me to go but I’m so confused…nevermind,at least I can visit her.tiffany = bout that thing I told you yesterday,I’m so sorry I never told you earlier when I should have.just wanna let you know that even though I told jia rui before you,it doesn’t make any difference yeh?and thanks for being so understanding.Love ya loads!! –rOcK oN baBe- really happy because school’s starting in two days time! –yIpPieZ- haha going for da forbidden city musical this Sunday and needa meet violet at tiong’s mcdonald at 12.30pm, I better not forget.been talking to piper halliwell these few days and really happy for her because she’s got someone amazing in her life –eNvY hEr LotS!- wish I had that someone in my life too…arh who cares!I can’t be bothered to get attached anyway and I love it like that!had so much fun in KL,although didn’t see that person…bought so much stuff!love that thai suit im gonna wear for hari raya!ans it’s really cheap = bout RM110 that is 55 bucks.love the night life there,there were a few bungs but couldn’t be bothered because they’re not good looking at all. ^&*(() tiffany : I maybe going on the 12th of December instead of 17th yeh? I’ll call you when it’s confirmed and I’m going to gold coast before visiting you ))_+% can’t wait for my birthday!it’s in bout 17 days time!my daddy’s giving me a hard time…he asked me to choose between a Levi’s skirt and a mp3! _-+=(( what tHe hell >?!@ but I guess I’ll tell him I wanna get the mp3.but I’m really dying to get my xbox! –urGh- so guess I better start saving up – 348 bucks…in the ways of wicca…blessed be and may the power of three set us free

aNgElCrAfT_07

2003-09-16T05:01:00.000-07:00

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-pErSoNaL dEveLopMenTS-
-be happy
-stop lying to myself
-smile more
-stop thinking too much
-believe in myself
-be more positive
-be independent
-study hard for year end exams

Long time since I last updated my blog.it’s been such 2 great weeks.worked really hard to make the ‘chers day celebration a success and it was! -yIpPieZ- learnt that I hafta to believe in myself.going for a holiday to KL this Saturday and coming back on Tuesday.can’t wait to go but I’ll miss all my friends and family.will miss a hell lot msging gor gor but it’ll be good for her because no one would disturb her when she’s working.haha…on Friday after the celebration went to cine and watched freaky Friday with liane and krystl.it was darn funny.the guy in the show called jake is sooo damn handsome and hot!he’s one of the hottest things on earth.haha.the girl from taina acted in the show too.on Saturday went for Samantha’s birthday party.played block catching,basketball,water bombs,truth or dare.told them that I’m not a lesbain but no one believed…haha gor told my honey to shut her ass.poor honey,it’s all my fault,shouldn’t have asked her to reply the msg for me.should have replied it myself.jobelle’s coming to my house tomorrow so I better clean it up.have to do a little bit of renovation to my blog 1)gotta put a tagboard because tiffany wants me to know when she visits my blog 2)write more bout myself…come on, it’s my blog and I can do anything yeh? 3)put my neoprints and a few pictures 4)put music?-that’d be cool

THaNk You’S:
tIfFaNy_07:to my dearest best friend,thank you for always being there for me,through the happiness and sadness,through the laughters and joys…you never failed to be there for me.you always speak up for me no matter what and always pamper me and get me everything and anything that I want.without you,I can never be the person I am today.without your strong encouragement and high hopes in me,there would be many things in life I would never have accomplished.on the day you left,I never wanted to think of a day living without hearing your voice and corny jokes.when I am down,you are the only one that understands what I really need and you never fail to read my mind…you always believed in me and were always there to support me through my ups and downs in life.it’s been amazing knowing you and it’s really weird that we have never fought,in any way and the best part’s that you are my best friend,sister,angel,encourager and corny friend all in one!haha…don’t forget the 15th of November we will be celebrating 4 years of best friendship! Can never forget the sleepover last year when we watched the midnight show for crossroads!we were outta our minds!haha,looking forward to seeing you in aussie in dec!*smucks* love ya and no one else can ever replace such an amazing friend like you…

HAzLyN aka pIpER:thank you for making my primary school life such a fun and memorable one.I don’t think I can ever find anyone as caring,funny and mad as you.you light up my life and made me feel that going to school is so fun!you never failed to make me laugh when I’m down and never fail to encourage me when I’m depressed.I can never forget the sleepover we had just to watch the last episode of charmed together…although we may not be in the same school and our lives are very much apart,but to me,you’re still close and special in my heart…blessed be.

LiAnE_#34:mad woman…haha really appreciate the friendship that you’ve given me for the past three years and counting.it’s been great knowing you and I love being your classmate ever since we got into the same class in primary 5!although we may have had fights,it brought us even closer and even though we don’t have much in common(except for the fact that we’re crooked…haha!) but we still manage to get along.thank you for being so understanding and mad,I love you just the way you are!

DEaRiE_#1:honey!haha…even though we’ve only been mates for one and ¾ years,it seems like I’ve known you ever since I was born.you’re always so outspoken,so brave and daring and you never fail to put a smile on my face every single day whether I’m sad or angry.I love you for doing so much stuff for me and don’t worry,I’ll do the gupreet graffiti thingy for you and don’t forget to ask her back for my magazine!I need it!haha,chill babe!

DAuGhtEr_#05:yeps we’ve been friends for almost two years but it wasn’t until recently that we got quite close.I’m really blessed to have such an amazing daughter and friend like you.I know that you’re trying to get over something but don’t stress yourself out too much yeh?like I said,some things are beyond our control,especially the stuff like this…if you need somebody to talk to or need a shoulder to cry on or hug,I’m there sweetheart,as a mother and a friend. Take care *hUgGieZ*

MArMie_#08:mummy mandy!it’s been so cool knowing you even though we don’t talk much but it seems that we can get along very well…good luck to you in band and hope you excel!I have nothing much to say but just wanna let you know that I’m really thankful that I have such a cool and funky mama like you!haha…

JIe jIe_#35:heyz! Although we have not known each other for long,you have made a great impact in my life and you’re always so funny and you’re always smiling…wish I was like you.all the best to you in dance and pray hard that I can go up to express because I can graduate with you!haha,love you loads!

JIe_jIE_#16:really wanna thank you for writing me that letter because if you didn’t,we would never have became friends and sisters!it’s amazing how we never thought that we’d end up like this…to me,you’re a funny,understanding and open person and you’re one of the best sisters I have and will ever have!

GOr_gOr_#32:another tiffany in my life!but now as a brother…haha.wanna thank you for being so nice and understanding.thank you for not leaving me alone but instead you made me a part of your life and I’m now your lil’ sister.unlike most people,I’ve never spoken to you since the time I’ve known you but I’ve only msged you.I still remember the first time you msged me,it was the 17th of February and you msged me to thank me for the valetine’s day gift.I know it’s dumb to remember this kinda stuff but I really wanna thank you for msging me because if you didn’t, I might not even know you until now.you’re the first brother I’ve ever had and I wanna thank you for everything.

GOr_gOR_#73:Elton gor gor!thou I have not known you for long but you’ve made a great impact in my life.I made friends with you in the weirdest way possible and I never dreamt that you would one day be my friend, let alone a brother!how cool is that?not many girls are that lucky. You’re my angel,you truly are.you never fail to make me smile with every message you send me.I really look forward to being your friend my whole life.really wanna thank you for pampering me so much. I’ve never had a friend that pampers me so much and I’m already nearly fourteen and you still call me a little girl and once told me that I’m too young to take care of myself and that is why you always tell me to take care.I’ll never forget the time when I cried and you told me that little girl cannot cry because if not I won’t look pretty and you always tell me not to skip my meals because I need energy to concentrate during lessons.the other time when I went for my friends birthday party,you’re the one who told me to eat a lot and enjoy myself…all these little ways of showing that you care always warms my heart. I love you and you’re my everything.

2003-08-17T20:00:00.000-07:00

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...having art now *sobs* so sad,this will be the last time we're using the lab so i'm heartbroken!haha,had so much fun with my family on saturday ;p my parents were holdin hands!??haha,but at least i know that their relationship's going well so wo fang xin! -aLaMak- gor knows that i was in value shop the other day and she even remembers the colour of my bag!haha,actually i'm feelin kinda flattered...yesterday went for a wedding in some wulu wulu place and had fun!the bride was so nervous!haha,she was so farnie!*heh* im so bad...omg?!the babies yesterday were sooo cute?feel like pinching all of them!wahahahahaha,wanted to take one home in particular...thank god!i'm not feelin that sick anymore because i thought of poning school today. haha,i'm such a naughty councillor man later needa stay back for the marching thingy again and then later going town with pTs_#1 and dAuGhtER_rAe. -yIpPiEz- can't wait...later mummy's gonna return me 12 bucks so i'll be rich!haha,wanna save money to buy my dream phone (nOkiA 3610-the second hand one-70 bucks!)haha,i'm such a cheapie man!don't have much to say and i'm really busy doing my art so i'll end here...cHaoS!!!in the ways of wicca...blessed be and may the power of three set us free.

2003-08-15T17:54:00.000-07:00

Purest of Pain"

I'm sorry I didn't mean to call
but I couldn't fight it
I guess I was weak and couldn't even hide it
and so I surrender just to hear your voice
I know how many times I said I'm gonna to live with out you
and maybe someone else is standing there beside you
but there's something baby that you need to know
that deep inside me I feel like I'm dying
I have to see you it's all that I'm asking.
Vida, give me back my fantasies
the courage that I need to live
the air that I breathe
carino mio, my world becomes so empty
my day's are so cold and lonely
and each night I taste
the purest of pain.
I wish I could tell you I'm feeling better every day
that it didn't hurt me when you walked away
but to tell you the truth I can't find my way
and deep inside me I feel like I'm dying
I have to see you it's all that I'm asking.
Vida, give me back...

2003-08-15T17:43:00.000-07:00

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*heh* damn tired now...really sick -bLeaH- having flu + terrible headache + fever=terrible life! *sobs* feeling really really sick. -yIpPiEs- finally,the exams're over...will do a review of all the papers.wahahahaha, yesterday was fun (a HeLl loTta FuN) me and fUnKie gAnG + pTs#2_09 went for lunch at KFc...had so much fun.then ''visited'' gor at her workplace -yEpS- stood right in front of her but didn't say hi_don't know why well,guess i was shy haha,that's not the real me,i'm always so open...-HmM- really happy with my blog!Love love love love it!^*(8899>>saTisFactIon gUaraNtEed<<<%668973@3# just needa add a tagboardie babie and it's done!wanna scan in all my neos and other pics but i don't have a scanner (((soLuTion : grAm'Z hoUsE!!))), later when i pick my lil'sista up,will go there and scan all the pics and ^vOiLa^,i can put all my pics in my blog and then it'll be = naTashA'z dReAm bLoG!yesterday,wore councillor uniform to school, goldfish took my badge away ^aH [[biSH]]x10 000^ but anyway,got it back so who cares. during homw econs,cooked vegetarian noodle.loots gave so much vegetables!than ate it durin recess with chilli sauce...wahahahahaha ;p the whole week had been practicing the marching thingy and altho it was pretty hard,had alotta fun and made friends!don't know how denyse_jie_jie knows my name when she doesn't know my friends! &pOnderS))...hafta practice again on mon so can't wait!haha, so proud of my pTs#1,she's doing the command!*smOoChiEs* darlin,don't freak out on the actual day yeh?good luck!so sad, tiffany tried to call me but i wasn't at home!miss her so much and have lotsa things to tell her but missed the chance so better pray hard she'll call me later.poor best friend + sister of mine, it's been two bad f***** weeks for her and not a single time was i there for her,she's so close to my heart and yet so far away.really miss her man...gonna cut my hair again,loved that particular length of my hair. going for sammie's b'day bbq in two or three weeks time,in order for me to be able to eat alot on that day,hafta watch my diet now if not i'll be a bloated balloon!haha,can't wait to get my Levi's skirt and black top,have been dreamin bout gettin the black top with a butterfly,i think it's beautiful altho i know the stuff there are really ex but no matter what,nothing's gonna stop me from getting what i want!haha,i'm soundin so fierce...haha =] yesterday talked to mArmIe_08 on the phone and had so much fun,were laughin and laughin all the way.marmie went mad!haha,that was so much fun,thanks to her i felt much better even thou i'm gloomy sick...ate the whole packet of lays potato chips yesterday and now my mouth hurts alot!my stomach's growlin now so i'm gonna eat!wahahahahahaha...in the ways of wicca...blessed be and may the power of three set us free.

2003-08-10T19:57:00.000-07:00

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[i'M LikE a faLLeN anGeL wiTh bRoKen wIngS tHat cAnnOt bE mEndEd aGaIn] in the computer lab now...heehee later needa stay beck the going town (yEah!!!) haha, guess goin with pTs and maybe ?daWn? haha, last night gor asked me who i liked but didn't tell her *heh* oBseSsiOn: havin this terrible craving for watermelons!don't know why=guess i'm mad...haix don't have enough money to get my other dream bag ^aLtho iT's 10 bUckS^, i'm such a loser man =] really like the pink roxy bag but hafta wait till next week when i get my 8%$saLarIe^#1! haha, know that im in deep s*** because my art's a goner!hope chia gives us time to do again and i swear i'll try my best(erM...i hOpe), had geography test today and it was cool,well not exactly.there were some questions that i know pEanUts bout but there was a question that i ansewered in tweLvE fReakIn LinEs!haha,what a lamer.chia's gonna call out my name soon so i better pray for the best.that craZie sugAR rAe wrote in her blog that im ^&mOthEr hEn-+, so that makes you my baBie cHick yeh?haha, love ya lotsa sweetheart *sMoOchIes* HEY liL' giRl, tRY aNd Get over *ahEm* yEh?i KNow iT'S haRd bUT doN't bE suRprIseD thAT it TakEs hALf a YeaR yeH?me and my mum're on good terms again {bLeSseD be}, needa do my art beacause if not i'll fail and i don't want that to happen... ^$#pOndEriN: really wanna but justin timberlake's album but i ain't got no money!-uRgH- where's all da money when i need them?!haix, just gotta get it next week...*needa do something to my blog so cHaoS! cEst La vIe!

2003-08-09T20:08:00.000-07:00

angel by amanda perez

It's been five months since you went away
Left without a word and nothing to say
When I was the one who gave you my heart and soul
But it wasn't good enough for you, no
So I asked God

God send me an angel
From the heavens above
Send me an angel to heal my broken heart
From being in love
'Cause all I do is cry
God send me an angel
To wipe the tears from my eyes

And I know it might sound crazy
But after all that I still love you
You wanna come back in my life
But now there is something I have to do
I have to tell the one that I once adored
That they can't have my love no more
Cause my heart can't take no more lies
And my eyes are all out of cries

God send me an angel
From the heavens above
Send me an angel to heal my broken heart
From being in love
'Cause all I do is cry
God send me an angel
To wipe the tears from my eyes

Now you had me on my knees
Begging God please to send you back to me
I couldn't eat, I couldn't sleep
You made me feel like I could not breathe
Now all I wanted to do was to feel your touch
And give you all my love
But you took my love for granted
Want my lovin' now
But you can't have it
God

God send me an angel
From the heavens above
Send me an angel to heal my broken heart
From being in love
'Cause all I do is cry
God send me an angel
To wipe the tears from my eyes

Oh God, send me (God send me an angel)
An angel (wipe the tears from my eyes) Oh baby
Send me an angel from the heavens above
Send me an angel (God send me an angel)
From being in love (send me an angel)
Oh God, send me an angel
Send me an angel (send me an angel)
Ooohhhh..

2003-08-09T19:51:00.000-07:00

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*depressed* really tired now because went over to cuzzie's house and stayed there for a really long time,need some sleep now. needa study geog later because the ca's tomorrow -urGh- really stressed up...really f***ed up too = thanks to that bitch ^haH^ wonder how the case went. need a listenin ear now but all the people surroundin me have their own problems to ponder over [siGh]x3 maybe i should write a song to destress myself, jobelle wants to write a song with me so i guess maybe i should start it first. (rEjoiCes): got my council badge on friday -yiPpiEs- and needa stay back tomorrow to practice the marching thingy for 'chers day...it's gonna be damn lame sia =) but at least i know we're gonna have alotta fun and that'll help me destress myself + my ptS will be there too so there'll be double the fun @yeAh# i'm happy now!

^&*rEfLecTioN)$#: learnt that don't trust everyone just because they're nice to you. dauGhtEr_05,i'm sure you know who i'm talkin bout yeh? after the incident, had some mood swings but thank god did not throw them on my friends.well,that's all for now.gonna start writin on the song now...

2003-08-06T00:41:00.000-07:00

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in the computer lab now doin art...yeah yeah as if man *heh* playin on the internet now. wahahahaha!yeaterday saw gor going home durin my recess because she had a athsma attack!haha...poor thing hope she's better now. alamak!help that sTupId mOtHeR fArkEr raise 115 bucks from alotta people and they want da money back! -urgh- bloody hell man.hmmmm...so angry with that irritatin baba, she went to msg elton gor and asked her what she was doin, i mean like (wHaAaaTt dA helL?), of course she is workin babe' then made me so embarrassed. *pai say*really sorry to all the poeple that tried to read my blog these few weeks but didn't see any improvement was because there was something wrong with blog and i needa fix it so =sOrWiE= yeh?it won't happen again. on mon went town with aNgeLinE and had alotta fun...took the new neoprint machine and yeah had to admit it was kinda nice and made me look *ahEm* a little chio!hahahahaha, i know that i'm really thick skin but what to do when i'm so ugly?really like rachel's blog!love the toaster with the bread on top!heehee...to rach: _three CHEERS and ThRee CheERs fOr rAChel'S bLog![hIp hIP hOorAy]x3 haha.okay better stop all my nonsensical crap before i really go outta my mind.wahahahaha,okay i reammy am outta my mind!haha, rachel and jane just came back from the canteen and so did baba the three of them can't stop laughin' don't know why...rachel and jane tryin to hide from baba, seow man.wallow...that baba damn VuLgUaR sIa -bLeaH- maRmiE_08 gave me the pic i took with daUghTer_06 durin the fun fair's shOooo cUte!haha...wanna go town with baba and dawn this fri. don't know if dawn's able to go because she's suspended but im sure to go with bathu..well needa kill baba to do my art for me ~i'm oNe naUghTiE wItCh~ so i'll end here...oh yeah! almost forgot,there's charmed tonight!in the ways of wicca...blessed be and may the power of three set us free.

tasha_07 aka
witchie atapchi

2003-07-25T17:39:00.000-07:00

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listening to michelle branch's [ sPiRiT rOoM ] cd now. really love her man! especially love the songs [ aLl yOu wAnTeD ] and [ gOoDbYe tO yOu ]. really can relate to the song < gOoDbYe tO yOu >! had to stand outside the science lab during science because we didn't do the science textbook questions. haha. alotta people didn't do. hten bumped into gor few times, bout 3... just realized that she's shorter than me! *heh*. stood beside her and i was thinkin' [ sHorTiE ] heeheehee...i'm so bad, gor didn't hurt me at and yet i'm insulting her. poor gor, so unlucky to have a mei like me.studying science now.gotta buck up if i really wanna go express.just now msged natalie jie and asked her bout her councillor stuff and she helped me ask her < jie > for me.natalie jie's definitely one of the most amazing and wonderful jies i have and will ever have. haha.today rachel tong asked me if i can be her mei and i said [ yes ].haha...sharifah made me cookies and they're soooo delicious.alotta my friends ate them too.wanna ask her for da recipe.yeah! my littli sister's coming back tomorrow!miss her a whole lot man,just now during home economics so funny!mary got scolded, as always.i forgot to bring my thermometer down and i told mdm loots that i took my temperature and she scolded me!she told me to buy a thermometer and i was like [wHat dA hElL!] had to go to the bookshop and buy the disposable ones.saw neng hui jie jie,wanted to say Hi but too shy...heehee.just remembered that i owe the bookshop auntie $0.50 cents.heehee...really lame.tonight gonna study till bout 2am then knock off.gonna revise my maths,science and read some books!my mother's home and im gonna have my dinner now!at the moment, my misfits end here...

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had assembly in the hall and didn't do council duty! *heh* Liane asked me if i wanna go to da sum 41's concert...i definitely wanna go cuz i love them!borrowed edison's and jolin's cds from ah Q and shermain.listenin to Jolin's [mY 72 tRanSfoRmAtiOnS]. the songs're quite nice.had my hair cut last night, don't really like it, kinda regret a little now. haha...but can't help it gotta wait for it to grow. keep seein' Liwen jie jie and idon't mind at all becaUSE i believe God wants me to be a strong person and not be afraid of anyone. in 85, met alotta people.these people're : *ahem*- natalie_jie, andrea,abigail,nurul,rachel mak,janet,michelle sun, dianna, azriana,victoria, zenn_da_bitch and her two other sickenin' friends. bathu, jia rui, samantha, angeline, shermain and i went to Gwc.went to pets' kampong and then had lunch at da food court...then jia rui showed us a pic of joleen when she was a mere 10 years old!kAwaIi!!!man, haha! she's so cute but -bleah- wasn't wearing her shirt! she looked as if she was doing a bruce lee pose...wahahahahaha! whoa! 6.10 pm already. gotta chaos and bathe!

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felt terrible today...was fucked up because of the terrible headache and caught flu *urgh* called mummy and she told me to take care.love mummy loads! -sMoOcHieS- had alotta fun today from pe onwards.felt so much better. had 2.4 km run today and passed it! *yeah* time: 15:29.haha...kinda slow but i'd rather do it now and get it over and done with than give up and do it again. was so crazy in class just noe. -05- and i were irritating -o6- by sayin "she was like [ hE's hErE!] and [oH mygOd!] and ''he was like [erM?brOwnIe? foR fReE?] coolL" -06- was pissed off, like hell then we, da whole class got scolded my leslie. he nagged(3) and nagged(3) even more. wahaha, that was so funny.in the mrt, rachel,kuti, paula and i ate nachos and drank frapuchino in the mrt then saw liwen jie jie at clementi.realized that no, i'm not scared and ashamed of her anymore...i mean why should i? it was maine's cuzzie that got p,not me. guess she got everythang wrong. mummy and i're gonna cut our hair later at jurong point. wanna try da 10 bucks for 10 minutes saloon...ya'll get a free comb after the haircut.heehee. daddy said that he wants to cut his hait too. haha mad daddie.just cleaned up my room and listenin' to classical music now and feelin so relaxed! *yippies* guess the adventures for today ends here.

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-morning auntie drove me to school and on the way we picked shermain up. helped to set up stall and stayed there until 1pm.then, went to put henna = $2.50 and also went to do nail art for 7 bucks. really love it man but had to take it off-went to the disco and it was so cool! main told me quite a few guys stared at me - fLatTeReD-. she said that i danced really well, as if. bumped inot gor quite a few times. whoa! love her shorts man...it's so cool and what's more it's black!wanna get the same one too...had alotta fun foam machine. went to play twice and bathed twice, with my clothes on.haha, met primary school mates mavis and nicole! - she's so chio, she told me she went on for three months and really slimmed down alot man...got two free j.lo posters from 3mm's stall. Janet and rachel mak gave me the F4 poster but i didn't want them....in the ways of wicca...blessed be and may the power of three set us free.

tasha_07 aka
witchie atapchi

2003-07-18T16:33:00.000-07:00

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this week has been so tiring! everyone and anyone has been preparing for the fun fair this sunday.wahahahahahaha, can't wait for that.my mummy hasn't sowed the mascot skirt for me yet and tomorrow's the fun fair. later i still needa go doen to school to set up the stall and ms siti wants all the [[treasurers and vice-treasurers]] to be in school by 9am. hafta go na dbathe soon because i'll have to leave at 8 sharp! can't wait to visit the haunted house, disco and foam thingy at the fun fair tomorrow! to tiffy, (daRliN', iF yOu'rE evA readIn tHis, i'M sUre yoU'rE frEaKkIn jEaloUs yEh?)) *heh* too bad. wahahahahahahaha...sorry got really influenced by that chao handsome gor of mine. haha, nah gor's not that handsome. edison chen,s the best, my one and only! heehee...yuppiez on mpnday i bought michelle branch's cd and i love it! the songs're awesome man, can't wait to but her new album next week. almost forgot, leono wants me to bring for her the black nail p[olish. better put it in my bag now. my stomach hurts alot now and i'm dying! on tuesday, did so many sit-ups! haha, my abdomen hurt alot. me, sammie, pat, sugar rae, leono, janie, krystl and baba went to queensway to order the class t-shirt...gonna collect it today and it costs 12 bucks! really ex man. then we went giant and bought alotta stuff for the fun fair. harha we had so much fun there. janie kept chrcking the prices of everything and sammie was calculating thru her handphone and if janie didn't want something after checking, sam'd hafta cancel and it was so funny! hahah...yesterday during home economics, me, mary, rachel and jeet jeet didn't cook because we didn't hand the workbook up in time and loote doesn't allow us to cook. yesterday Qiu ru got me into big trouble. everyone knows that bao wei likes liwei alot and ah Q just had to tell her that i'm attached to liwei and i ever snogged her and *ahem* in the toilet before! i was like what the hell! so embarrassed! the jobelle asked me "ya had sex in the toilet?" everyone was looking and throughtout the whole day, sammie was sayin " someone snogged a bung". urgh! i'm feelin sooooooo embarrassed! don't know how to face them later and tomorrow. talkin bout sammie, during the track competition, she saw her crush! RYAN CHOO! haha...she even wrote his name all over her books and stuff. hahahaha...then sammie, janie and baba made friends with jamie and neng hui jie jie and told me they're damn funny.so,to jamie jie jie and neng hui jie jie, if you guys'll ever read this, just wanna thank you people for taking care of my naughty daughters yeh? *muacKS*. on mon me,sammie,leono,pat,rina,sugar rae, baba,janie and alotta others're going to town! yeah! finally...after so long. gonna watch 2 fast 2 furious. paul walker's so HhOOoTt! really runnin outta time so gonna stop here. in the ways of wicca...blessed be and may the power of three set us free.

tasha_07 aka
witchie atapchi

2003-07-13T20:32:00.000-07:00

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in the computer lab now having art. i'm not doing anything that has gotta do with art...*heh* i am so naughty! i changed my blog again, thanks to liane and patircia. tomorrow we're gonna go and buy the stuff for the fun fair. wanna go town but i don't think i'm able to because of the fun fair which's this sunday and i can't wait because i wanna visit the haunted house! gonna buy michelle branch's cd later...can't bear to waste money but i really love her songs especially the song "goodbye to you". my god, the lyrics're so nice. it really portrays the feelings of someone who has fallen outta love,like my beloved classmate, jobelle. to my sweetheart jobelle: there're alotta other wonderful guys in this world and to find the right guy,it takes time so you just gotta wait yeh?there's nothing wong in being single. it's one of the most wonderful feelings in the world. being single means the world only centers to you. lesson has ended so i'll end here. in the ways of wicca...blessed be and may the power of three set us free.

tasha_07 aka
witchie atapchi

2003-07-13T06:16:00.000-07:00

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i'm back here again to update my dumb life. on fri i just realized that people i respect hate me and one of them even called me a loser. i'm now feelinf really insulted beacuse i didn't do anything to these people and yet they say auch stuff about me.but i cant expect everyone to like me can i? but all i know's that my true friends're tiffany,samantha,liane,patricia,sharon heet,sharon ng,Qiu ru,jane,tanya,jobelle,jia rui,nisha,shermain,mary,irina,krystl,suzanna,paula,rachel ng,rachel sng,rachel tong,jessica,shermaine, banana,kuti,my gor:tiffany,jies:qiaofen and natalie and mum:amanda. each and every single one of them are amazing and special in their own way. to all of them, wanna thank you guys for being there for me always,especially during the orals remember?haha...thank you and i love every single one of you.to those not written here like mardi, i wanna just call you up specailly to say i love you because you're an angel. knowing you has made my life look so positive and wonderful.though i,ve not known you for long, you've already made a great impact in my life. thank you for being there when i needed someone to pour out my feelings to. you're the one who understood how much i loved koko. you even forseed the outcome.from the bottom of my heart, thank you. finally! i got to watch my boyfriend edison chen in the twins effect! just watched it today with my sister and it was funny.i'm so 100% comfirmed that the love of my life now is edison chen!he's so hot man...talked to tiffany on thurs and we catched up on the good times. how i miss my best friend. i dyed my hair again and this time the colour's a little bit more obvious. thanks godma!you're a genius with hair babe!well, i'run outta things to say so i'll end off here.in the ways of wicca...blessed be and may the power of three set us free.

tasha_07 aka
witchie atapchi

2003-07-10T07:15:00.000-07:00

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just changed my blog just now and i love it!haha...tomorrow im going to my aunt's house to dye my hair again because the colour's not that good the other time so i'll try again. my parents're supportive bout the idea. stayed back in school just now to finish art and we had a whole lotta fun in da lab. asked suzanna to help me wiht da picture and she ended up disfiguring my picture and i had to do it myself. then they asked us to shut down the computers because they needed to reset the internet thingy...made us wait for a really long time. that krystl went to the ghost website with sharon and that grandson of mine was hiding under the table and krystl was covering her eyes and i was the one who had to exit the website for them...hopeless man these people. these few days i've been trying to call tiffany but never got to talk to her because she was either sleeping or went swimming and when she was waiting for my calls, i was busy having lessons. really unlucky yeh. on mon went to watch dumb and dumberer with qiu ru and felicia at jurong point. i saw crystal ng and was so shocked because she looked totally like a guy...as in a 100% bung. i didn't say hi to her. heh,i'm a bad girl *grins* we were supposed to watch twins effect but da tickets were sold out. was dying to watch the show because there's edison chen inside!haix...really tired so i'm gonna end here. in the ways of wicca...blessed be and may the power of three set us free.

tasha_07 aka
witchie atapchi

2003-07-04T17:38:00.000-07:00

Before Your Love By Kelly Clarkson

I wonder how I ever
Made it through a day
How did I settle for a
World in shades of grey
When you go in circles
All the scenery looks the same

And you don’t know why
Then I looked into your eyes
Where the road stretched out
In front of me
And I realized

I never lived before your love
I never felt before your touch
I never needed anyone
To make me feel alive
But then again
I wasn’t really living
I never lived before your love

I wanted more than
Just an ordinary life
All of my dreams
Seemed like castles in the sky
I stand before you
And my heart is in
Your hands

And I don’t know how
I survived without your kiss
‘Cause you’ve given me
A reason to exist

Chorus

And I don’t know why
Why the sun decides to shine
But you breathed your love into me
Just in time

Chorus

2003-07-04T17:03:00.000-07:00

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heyz...im back again.cant keep updating cuz i ain't got da time.just now went to read my best friends blog and it's really nice and it's so similar to mine man so tiffy, if you're ever reading this,thank you and no one can replace you as my best friend. *muacks* on wednesday,went to town with angeline,qiu ru and felicia.went to far east and took neo prints and we went to taka and i bumped into to daugter_09 and her stead korey.when nu er saw me, she practically screamed my name out!haha...then we went to heeren and ij tp girls asked us to buy da fun fair tickets and we bought them.the bung's seow...she asked if we have enough money to go home.of course we do, we use da ez link card!haha,than daughter_09 called felicia and asked if she could join us.while waiting,bumped into dawn and her stead.when i asked her if she poned school,she said no.then that daughter came along with my son-in-law.haha,she's so quiet.the three of us went home together and just as we were about to cross da road,korey called me mummy.haha,that was funny man!yacked alot throughout da journey (to daughter_09 and son-in-law_02,you guys are great!love da both of ya!*smucks*).on thursday night, tiffany called me and we talked and talked and she told me that she read my blog and said it was funnt bout how i discribed bout hee baby sister nat.tiff also told me that da girls in her school,at her age are all not virgins!damn...what da hell are those girls thinking?hmmm,maybe it's fine over there in aust. but we asians're so conservative...well not exactly.haha. yeaterday went for a play called sing to that dawn.it's actuallt da same title of the literature book that we're gonna learn this next half of da year.the play was amazing.they acted really well!wanna be like them when i grow up!i wanna study in La Salle SIA after secondary school but my dad insists that i go to a jc first.haix,guess i gotta listen to him!i really like this guy in brown in da play,he was hot!hot!hot!haha, after da show i was thinking bout him the whole time!haha...well guess i gotta end here.in the ways of wicca...blessed be and may the power of three set us free.

tasha_07 aka
witchie atapchi

2003-06-30T01:12:00.000-07:00

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told my daddy that i wanna do my art,yeh i'm doing a little bit but da main reason's to update my blog...haha.it's been so long since i went out with my mum and jie.jie suggested that we should go to town and take neo prints but i'm not able to cuz of da fun fair and art stuff so i'm usually gonna stay at home and do my work.-bleah-today saw mardi and she's so ku niang!haha...really happy for her cuz she's preety and has a good figure,why waste her time being someone of da opposite sex?bet gor must be really poor thing cuz her best friend's really straight.well,not exactly cuz jie overheard her saying that she wants to be pL.hmmm...kinda gross but i respect her thinking cuz she must have valid reasons for being one and i hope that when she grows up she won't regret what she has become.i've another jie i think and it's natalie.my sister nat went to read 16's blog and said that she wrote in the blog that i'm her mei mei so i guess i am yeh?she says that she'll be back to school a week later.hope she recovers quickly.she's a really understanding person.today i saw my son-in-law,don't really know how ta spell her name but i guess it's corrine...?(daughter,don't scold me if you read this yeh?mummy's bad at spelling names...heehee -pai say-)my tuition 'cher just broke up with her boyfriend and her eyes were all red yesterday when she was teaching me and she said "im gonna be a lesbian" and i laughed really loudly cuz she's already 19...haiyah,that 'cher of mine so hopeless.on thurs,my mummy,bathu and i had dinner at bk and my mother asked bathu "natasha likes tiffany tay right?" and bathu nodded her head!omg!i was practically chocking on the food.koko's my gor...haix im gonna end here cuz my dad might come anytime.in the ways of wicca...blessed be and may the power of three set us free.

tasha_07 aka
witchie atapchi

2003-06-28T07:54:00.000-07:00

A Voice Within
Young girl, don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall
Young girl, it's all right
Your tears will dry, you'll soon be free to fly
When you're safe inside your room you tend to dream
Of a place where nothing's harder than it seems
No one ever wants or bothers to explain
Of the heartache life can bring and what it means
When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within
Young girl, don't hide
You'll never change if you just run away
Young girl, just hold tight
And soon you're gonna see your brighter day
Now in a world where innocence is quickly claimed
It's so hard to stand your ground when you're so afraid
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold
When you're lost outside look inside to your soul
When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within Yeah...
Life is a journey
It can take you anywhere you choose to go
As long as you're learning
You'll find all you'll ever need to know
You'll make it
You'll make it
Just don't go forsaking yourself
No one can stop you
You know that I'm talking to you
When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within Young girl don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall

2003-06-28T07:52:00.000-07:00

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it's been two weeks since i last updated my blog and there's alotta things to say...last sunday, had lunch with tiffany's mum and her baby sister nathlene.she kept saying that i look like tiffany!haha,that's funny but after all, she's my best friend.nat went to my house and we played a hell lot!made alotta badges and we even bathed her!haha,we also watched teletubbies and listened to westlife.it's amazing how a three year old's listening to westlife...when her mum came to pick her up,she was clinging on to me and started wailing as loud as she could.what a sweetheart.on thursday i went for the council camp and it was so fun!ran all over singapore, well not exactly.we ran from school to da whole of mount faber and we had to eat half a banana in 10 secs!of course we did it...then we ran to harbour front where wo gotta ppractically swallow da whole tomato down in 3 secs!and we did it again by setting the record!haha,followed on by going to alkaff mansion,radin mas cc,soccer court and a few other places that i cant remember.haha,we got 2nd place in da racw.went to clean up before resting a while at da lighthouse and headed to play captain's ball. i didn't play,just cheered by tha side. -bleah- we had barberque.bathu was so spontaneous about grilling all the food, i was calling her "maria". haha,had alotta fun just sitting together and talking bout stupid stuff.then we played another round of captain's ball and this time round i was in!had alotta fun and bout 8 we left. today i went to town and went to orchard library.bumped into zenn,sinn yi, neng hui,diana,bubu and joan.haix,kinda embarrassed. love the song voice within by christina aguilera so im gonna put da lyrics up cuz this song inspired me after listening to it...im signing off like this. today found out that my name means rebirth and my best friends name tiffany stands for, in the presence og God. in the ways of wicca...blesses be and may the power of three set us free.

tasha_07 aka
witchie atapchi

2003-06-14T06:21:00.000-07:00

"Losing You"

yeahhhhh
sitting here alone thinking it through trying to convince myself that i'm
not losing you,
or can't you just forget the things i said
i was angry at the time but now i cleared my head
it was so strong, where did it all go wrong

[chorus]
so tell me why, i'm swimming against the tide
and i'm praying for a lifeline, cos i'm
losing you
so tell me why, you took care enough to try
are you giving up this fight, i can't stand,
wont stand, losing you

you don't have to say a word its in your eyes
what can i do to convince you we need more time
and i know i may have made a few mistakes
but losing you is just too much for me to take
it was so strong, where did it all go wrong

[chorus]

so tell me what to say
because i need, a chance to change
and i wont let you walk away

[chorus x2]

2003-06-14T06:15:00.000-07:00

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had so much fun on thurs cuz it was mum's birthday. went to town and i met this really cute bung on the mrt. she was sitting beside me and i msged jie to tell her that the bung's really cute and she was reading what i was typing and she was laughing. her name's deon. we got to know each other for a short while and she was digging my wallet and read all the msgs in my phone! that bung! she's really crazy...making dumb jokes bout people in the mrt. she asked me if i wanted to know her more and go out sometime i said no because i wanna turn straight. yeh, i didn't wanna turn down such an amazing person but i just wanna turn straight cuz crook life doesn't last a lifetime altho it does for some but i'm a girl and is born to marry a guy, a real guy. not someone that just puts up a front of a guy and is the same as me on the inside...but im really outta love and wanna find a stead but to find true love, you'll hafta wait so i'm gonna do just that even though it'll take a long time.i have my family and friends. what more could i ask for? my daughter asked me of i wanna go to sentosa on tues and i don't think i want to cuz i've been feeling down these few days and don't seem to have the mood to do anything. i've been locking myself up in my room and not doing much, just reading books, listening to music, writing in my quote book and somtimes i talk to my friends over the phone when i'm free but i don't talk much cuz my dad uses the net and i only have one line. tonight im gonna sleep late cuz i wanna watch my sassy girl. wanted to catch it on the big screen but didn't have the time to. wanna watch lotsa shows... finding nemo, bruce almighty, the up-coming charlie's angles full throttle, how to lose a guy in 10 days and im dying to watch ju-on!!!it seem so scary and cool! did nothing much yesterday and today. didn't go out at all...helped my mum make honey cornflakes. they taste great thanks to my mum. tiffany just msged me wishing me good night. really miss her man... wanna go see her. she's got a letter for me. i'm gonna buy her a roxy keychain and stussy shirt. there ain't much to say so i'm signing off. in the ways of wicca...blessed be and may the power of three set us free.

tasha_07 aka
witchie atapchi

2003-06-11T21:09:00.000-07:00

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today's my mummy's birthday. she's getting older but preetier each year. we'll be going town later and will only come back in the wee hours of the night. miss town, it's been a week since i went there. the pressie i bought for mummy's really cheap. it's a gemini coaster and costs a mere 1.50 bucks. it was the same shop where i bought my stussy jacket. i love it cuz it's black. if only i could paint my room black, i would. sher's mothers birthday is today too. it's been five days since i last updated this blog. haix, really miss school. im really happy cuz i apologized to 16 on her tagboard and she forgived me and she's gonna write me a letter when school opens! really happy to know that the misunderstanding between us is over since it's been two weeks and three days when i got over gor. on tues night, was msging gor. gor overslept in the bus and drooled all over the seat. told 32 to wipe off but she just told me to let the the next person sit on it. gross yeh? eew...gor also borrows mummy's pillow to sleep in class and has lotsa drool on it and mummy doesn't even know! gor even told me not to tell mummy but of course i told mummy cuz mummy promised to lend me that pillow! i wouldn't wanna be hugging a pillow that has gor's drool all over! alamak, can't imagine if i borrowed the pillow and had no idea gor used it. that'd be disastrous! haha...i better stop freaking out. there's a bird outside my window, it's so adorable. mummy says she wants to bring me to sentosa to stay in a hotel since im not able to go to sydney cuz of the sars outbreak the other time. i'm not really keen on going to sentosa because i prefer having a sleepover and then we could have a barberque...but don't know if my parents will allow. at the parent teacher conference last week, i was doing duty when i founf the love of my life, he's none other that karolyn's brother, steve. God! he's hot, how the hell sre there such hot guys around? but too bad, im not that good looking. really heartbroken cuz ny nicky byrne is gonna marry that stupid, ugly-looking georgina ahern! the daughter of irish's prime minister, bertie ahern. forget it, he was never mine either. just like gor, she was never mine either that's why i never hated 16 and i don't blame gor even tho she said that she's sorry for hurting me and being a pain in the ass. it's not her fault and will never be. i was the one that chose to suffer because i said i like 32 and it lead me to alot of pain and suffering and even led me to end up in kong's office. now then i realize what an asshole that kong is. mdm leong's right. we don't have a good principal this time. guess there's nothing else to say so im signing off. in the ways of wicca...blessed be and may the power of three set us free.

tasha_07 aka
witchie atapchi

2003-06-07T08:48:00.000-07:00

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hey...feeling really tired now. went to help out at a wedding and i needa do it again tomorrow. -bleah- now i won't get to enjoy my hols. really happy that my dad got back his job. now i can go town whenever i want to. haha...nah actually guess not cuz i needa study hard. yesterday went to school for speech and prize presentation. really cool...had no idea that the guest-of-honour was my primary school's ex-principal, Mrs. Tan. she's such a wonderful person. haha... after that my mummy went to pick me up and went for dinner at mac. waited for jie cuz she was waiting for her darling Clara. It was their one month anniversery yeaterday. really happy for jie cuz she finally found someone who loves her alot and not like *ahem* who two-timed her. really happy for mardi jie cuz she's really str8. jie told me that her friend saw mardi in spaghetti stripes and a mini skirt. how straight can she get? haha...but it's good for her cuz she's chio. it's a waste trying to act like the opposite sex. hey, just found part of a song that tells how i feel after getting over gor. "i learnt a lesson on my life, but i learnt it the hard way. I don't know why i used to fall in love with the wrong kind. then i'd suffer so much pain but i ony have myself to blame...". really shows how i feel. during hols, when my dad starts working, i'm gonna call up all my friends and we'll have a small party. not those kind that has alcohol but a small party watching movies, eating lotsa popcorn, playing games and making prank phone calls. it's gonna be so much fun! who says that partys won't be fun without fagging? haha... i wanna watch agent cody banks cuz they have frankie muniz and hilary duff inside. can't believe that they're dating! wanna save all the money that i get during the hols so that when school re-opens and i'll splurge all the money when i go to town... can't wait. i really love shopping! i'm dead, this thurs's my mummy's birthday and i haven't got her anything yet. what an "filial" daughter i am. mummy loves me so much but i still don't appreciate it. haix...on thurs my mummy went to see ms loke to collect my report book. they talked bout less than a minute. thank god cuz if my dad was the one seeing ms loke, he'd be talking to her for an hour or more! haha...im kinda bragging a little too much yeh? love this year's class t-shirt cuz the logo is designed by me! haha, can't wait to get it and wear it on the day of the fun fair. amazing that my parents didn't scold me for failing my d&t and history. maybe because they know that i won't be taking those subjects next term. kies...needa end here cuz i'm really tired. In the ways of wicca...blessed be and may the power of three set us free.

tasha_07

2003-06-03T00:59:00.000-07:00

030603

hey!now in the school computer lab wasting time. really bored...haix.on thurs gonna go town but guess that i ain't got any money thou but who cares. just now went to tiong for lunch. took a cab there but had not enough money to take one back. kinda sad cuz my dad got suspended from his job and's not working at da moment. he doesn't have enough money to spare for me and sis. haha...today jia rui, jane and nisha were kinda despo for me to get them a dad and all they could come up with is luying and mardi. no way tiffany tay man. to the three of you : really sorry that i haven't got you guys a dad but i don't see the need too but if ya peepz really want, you'll have to wait cuz just got over gor and there's no one im interested in at the moment. i just wanna be an independent woman and mother. hope you people understand yeh? no bung seems to attract me now. all of them are really ugly. cant believe i ever liked gor. it's not as if she's nice or anything. guess that i was really blind. final conclusion is that all bungs are bastards! except my sons and grandsons like julianna, tong tong, lynn, gupreet, sharon_goldfish and physilllia. haha...kies don't know what else to say so im gonna end here. blessed be...may the power of three set us free.

tasha_07

2003-05-31T18:58:00.000-07:00

010603

blessed be, i'm back again. haha, don't ask me why cuz i'm really bored. wanna go out tomorrom but don't know if my dad'll allow and have no idea who to go with. in just an hour, so many things happened. hung the clothes and mu mum's shirt fell into my rabbit's cage. i just killed this humoungous, ugly looking cokoroach. god! how the hell do such stuff get into my house. i needa get a roxy ankle sock cuz i don't have enough. saving lotsa money so that i can get cds, nail polish, clothes, clothes and more clothes! hahaha. i'm a shopaholic. no one can go shopping with me except tiffany, mum and jie. the rest of my friends'll die. especailly bungs! but i'll kill my stead if _ doesn't know how to shop. i'll be really dasippointed. yeah! tiffany's mother's back in singapore. she's back to teach punggol IJ art. can't wait for her to drop by my house cuz tiff has our album and i needa update it. wanna go to the beach some time during the hols but i don't think i have the time cuz my dad's not working and i don't have so much freedom like i used to. but it won't kill not going to town... actually it will. i won't be able to take neo prints at annex and far east anymore. *sobs* i'll just hafta wait for my dad to get a job. tomorrow i'm gonna bring my camera to school and we'll take crazy shots and lotsa fun shots. hey...then i don't needa go town to take neo! it isn't that bad after all yeh? k...that's all i hafta say. blessed be

tasha_07 aka
witchie atapchi

2003-05-31T18:56:00.000-07:00

2003-05-31T17:40:00.000-07:00

010603

hey...really sorry that i haven't been updating my blog yeh? actually i updated it but the com had some problems so everything was cancelled. now i'm really over gor and needs some love. really envy all those people that're attached. when they're feeling down or ppl in school'r etrying to be funny with them, their steads'll protect them but no one's here to protect me frome the world outside. hmmm, but it's okay because takes a really long time. i'd rather wait for that person than going around like a despo with every single person i see. haha, i can't do that cuz i'm not a despo, it's just that i'm outta love for a really long time now. it wasn't that bad last time because i had my best friend cum sister cum angel with me, tiffany. but now, she's at the other end of the world. she's in aussie. many people look at me everyday, seeing that smile on my face. yeah, sure i've got all the people i love around me. i have my daughters, sons, in-laws, jie's and gor. that's just part of my life. behind those smiles lies a girl who's really heartbroken and needs her best friend alot. without tiffany, i wouldn't be the girl standing in front of everyone. she's always been there for me no matter what. when i was bored, she was just a phonecall away. but now even smiling to her is impossible and we talk only once a month. there are many nights that i cry myself to sleep thinking how my life has changed drastically. tiffany left to aust last year, not knowing when she'll come back. i fell in love. told that person how i feel but didn't get the answer even after waiting for 8 mths. but i don't blame gos because her heart belongs to 16. i really wish them all the best. haix...another headache. this wed's my grandson's birthday. don't know what to get her. maybe fish food. after all, she's a "goldfish". haha. really sad that this's the last week of school. i'm not gonna go town during the holidays. wanna ask my daughters to came over so we can have a party. it's been so long since i invited people to my house. well, i have nothing much to say so im signing off. ceSt La vIe!

tasha_07 aka
witchie atapchi.

2003-05-28T01:33:00.000-07:00

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peepz, hey! today had alotta fun at cyber home cuz we were watching a movie bout a boy that pons school. man, i'm sure gonna learn from him. on mon, i saw isaac from light years and he was standing beside me waiting to cross the traffic light opposite heeren. i could have melted plus the hot sun. haix...i'm really dumb because i could've asked to take neo prints with him or asked foe his autogarph, but i didn't cuz i was too star struck. haha... forget it. next time when i have better luck wiht stars that i like, i'll ask for their autographs! today my period came and i asked my friend to go down to the art room to ask jie and mum if they had pads and i nearly fainted cuz at that time, the pain was too much for me to bear...haha. *pai say*. without my knowledge, that naughty daughter of mine passed the hair dye to gor gor. haha, poor gor because the lady at the front of the box's been disfigured...by the courtesy of patricia! she sure had s fun time doing that and vandalising misa's table with my PERMANENT ORANGE MARKER... haha. to all my daughters and sons, we have more people coming into our family. they're lynn, franchesca, physillia and gupreet! kies...breathe in, breathe out yeh? you take care yeah all my little sweethearts? mummy misses you all! i'll go town with the whole bunch of you ond day yarh? and please be nice to the soon-to-be-born un-named baby cyclops yeh? in the ways of wicca...blessed be and may the power of three set us free. ps: i'll try to scan in some photos of my friends and i yeh? haha... amigo!

2003-05-28T01:19:00.000-07:00

270503

hey...really happy today cuz i can finally confirm that i really am 24/7 over my crush already. to my ex-crush, just wanna tell ya thank you for teaching me how to fall on love all over again. Altho i told you that i fell for you, i didn't get the answer i prayed for but falling for you has been one of the most beauitful experiences in my life and will always be. Don't worry, you're not a pain the ass and neither did you hurt me. knowing you and your best friend is the best that i could ever wish for, so thank you if you ever read this message. Really sorry that i sent in late yeh? haha... chaOs!

2003-05-25T20:12:00.000-07:00

260503

i'm really happy today cuz im going town but aint gonna let my parents find out cuz last i week i was close to getting grounded by my dad. haix... i'm really happy because im finally 24/7 over my crush. haha... gonna take out the pic in my wallet and im gonna turn straight. really sad cuz i can't go down to aussie and visit tiff. she's my best friend and i can't see her. it's been like six months since i last saw her. haha...the last time we were together was when we were pigging out at swensens changi airport with all our good friends. really wish that i had spent more time with her before she left s'pore. chaos! PeAcE...07